Month: July 2012

Making Exercise Fit: It’s the Small Stuff…

Making Exercise Fit: It’s the Small Stuff…

Last week, I was forwarded an article that claimed that inactivity now kills as many people as smoking. Apparently: A lack of exercise is now causing as many deaths as smoking across the world, a study suggests. The report, published in the Lancet to coincide […]

Think Happy Thoughts – Mantras for a Better Week

Think Happy Thoughts – Mantras for a Better Week

I’ve been amazed at how many people identify with me on the emotional eating front – especially among people who, like me, have to juggle a lot of balls and spin a lot of plates to keep everything ticking along. It’s one of those things […]

In Praise of Curves, Skinny, & Everything Else

In Praise of Curves, Skinny, & Everything Else

You know what’s boring?

Being told what’s hot. That’s boring.

I am tired – tired, I tells ye – of talking to people of all shapes and sizes who aren’t happy with how they look, because they don’t live up to the ‘ideal.’  I’m also tired of living in a world where ‘curvaceous’ is shorthand for fat, but thin girls are told that they’re not good enough because ‘real women have curves.’

Someone needs to pin down the ‘ideal’ for me – because I am well and truly lost. Is it thin? Because that doesn’t seem to be enough – I know plenty of thin people (male and female) that don’t like what they see in the mirror. And if it’s curves – well, I’m pretty sure every curvy girl I know has been called ‘fat’ at some point or another.

Case in point: Kate Upton.

Apparently, according to a website called “Skinny Gossip” (which I’m not going to link to, because I’m not going to give the author that sort of credit), Kate Upton is fat. Yes, fat. She’s also “lazy,” “lardy,” has “huge thighs, NO waist, big fat floppy boobs, terrible body definition,” and “looks like a squishy brick.”

I refer you again to the photograph above. I mean… Seriously!?

I’d like to hereby call time on ‘shaming’ of all descriptions – fat-shaming, thin-shaming, slut-shaming… What has it come to when all we ever do is try to bring each other down? No wonder our conceptions of body image are so skewed (see this post for some scary, depressing statistics) – and no wonder we’re all getting sick with everything from type 2 diabetes to anorexia. Nobody knows what they’re trying to achieve, but everyone’s safe in the knowledge that what they’ve got isn’t good enough.

I mean… Come ON guys. I’m a “weight-loss blogger” now, and I’ve received a LOT of compliments since I’ve been losing the weight – but I am not perfect. Not even close. I’ve got cellulite. I’ve got stretch marks. And my abs ain’t anything even resembling abs yet. So I am not perfect.

What I am, however, is cool with me, and at peace with the fact that, yes, I have a big ass and big boobs. That’s my body type, and that isn’t going to change no matter how much weight I lose – so I might as well bloody love it. Because if I love it, other people will love it too. I already know that if I walk out with my head held high, I’ll get more attention than if I’m down on myself – so I’ve made the conscious decision to be happy with who I am.

Unfortunately, I know way too many people that don’t seem to be able to do that – and that’s understandable. It’s hard to get out of the mindset that you’re not perfect, because we’re perpetually bombarded with messages telling us we’re not good enough, so we can’t be happy. But I’m not interested in buying into a world where only one type of body is beautiful. Variety is the spice of life, and I say we should bask in that.

Screw fat-shaming. Screw thin-shaming. Screw all that. If we keep perpetuating these things by continually snarking, we’re just making a worse world for ourselves – and we’re only ruling out our own happiness in the long-term.

And on that note, I’m going to find myself an army. Or at least a flag.

Vive la revolution!

 

The Guns: My Favourite Upper-Body Exercises

The Guns: My Favourite Upper-Body Exercises

I love weight training. There’s nothing more satisfying. It’s hard, and it’ll make you pull some interesting faces – and probably break into a sweat sitting down – but it’s pretty empowering to be safe in the knowledge that you’ve got great upper body strength. […]

How I Lost 110lbs and Got Happy

How I Lost 110lbs and Got Happy

I’m actually pretty delighted to be writing this post, because – along with the aforementioned Mr Super-Trainer-Nutritonist-Man (who I’ll introduce properly below) I’ve finally got this weight loss thing down to an art. Not an art, actually – a science. GO SCIENCE. If I haven’t […]

The Psychology of Getting Fit

The Psychology of Getting Fit

If there’s one question I get asked a lot (second only to ‘How did you do it?’) it’s this – ‘do you feel different?’

Usually the people asking that question are referring to the physical side of it – and yes, I feel completely different. I’m less tired. It doesn’t hurt to get out of bed or the bath. I’m comfortable in my clothes. And so on. That’s all great, and having come this far I can safely say that the pain and discomfort of the journey to get fit is far less difficult to deal with than the day-to-day discomfort of being morbidly obese.

Psychologically, however, losing all of this weight is a strange thing. I’d like to say that I’m the same person I always was, fat or otherwise, but I’m not. I’m still in the position of catching my reflection and being (positively) surprised by it – and believe me, that does NOT get old. But it does throw you off centre a tad, because when you’ve spent years building up an idea of yourself and your identity, only to significantly change it – well, it’s odd.

To me, it really reinforces the reasons that this sort of drastic change needs to be a slow-burn process. Seeing yourself differently because you know you’ve put in months and years of hard work to get there has a very different impact on you than waking up after surgery or extreme, sudden weight loss having been changed by something or someone externally.

Personally, I can completely understand how it’s easy to regain the weight if you suddenly drop 100lbs in a short space of time, because in your head, you’re still the same person. You haven’t learned how to live in a different body, or how to maintain it – and you’re not psychologically prepared for the change in yourself and your identity. Aside from what’s going on in the mirror, I know I’m personally a different person because I’ve built up some pretty hardcore reserves of will power – meaning I can bat aside temptation like a ninja (90% of the time).

This isn’t just about how you see yourself either. Having lost weight, I’ve found myself treated differently by both sexes, and by all ages.

Not differently – better.

Only now can I appreciate how differently other people treated me as a ‘fat girl.’ There’s a certain persona attached to being a fat girl that I know I played up to – I’d try to be louder, funnier, bubblier, cuddlier… You name it, I did it, matching every expectation of what a fat girl ought to be. So I don’t blame anyone for treating me as anything other than that, because it’s a situation I positively courted. What I didn’t court, though, was the assumption – endemic in our society – that if you’re fat, you’re also lazy, dirty, unmotivated, and dumb. I don’t actually know anyone who lives up to that stereotype, and I don’t know why it continues to persist, but I’m pretty certain that I’ve been judged on that basis before – so there’s no avoiding it.

At this end of my journey, though, I don’t need to shout to make my voice heard, because I don’t feel invisible. Men are more respectful (and appreciative of my still-not-insignificant booty – which I’m not complaining about.) I have a lot of amazing girl friends, and they’ve always treated me in the same way – but women I don’t know well treat me with more respect, and don’t patronise me because of my size.

But the thing is, I’m still not exactly skinny – I’ve still got a fair way to go between here and ‘fit,’ and I’m certainly not a model-esque beauty wandering the streets, so the fact that I’m getting attention from unexpected places isn’t because I’ve got some sort of rockin’ bod that demands attention. Nope, I’m sorry guys – I’m still not (yet) Beyonce. So it’s got to be something else that’s making people look at me differently.

One of the things that’s really changed for me in my full-body-overhaul has been my confidence – because I’ve worked hard, I know my strengths, and I know that – comparatively – I look good. I’m strutting along, meaning that I’d estimate that at least 60% of the glances I get from passers-by are because they’re wondering why this short, slightly round girl is walking down Worcester High Street like she’s thinks she’s on the catwalk at Milan Fashion Week. I know that, but I don’t care, because I feel good. I’m comfortable in my own skin, and I’m happy – and while it sounds like a cliche, when things are all good on the inside, it’s obvious on the outside too.

It does mean, though, that I now look back on my old self through new eyes – and while I think I had good reasons for getting to where I was, weight-wise, it does make me sad to look back and realise that I was so miserable before. And I sort of hate writing that, because I don’t want to be a proponent of a society where everyone has to be skinny to be happy. I wouldn’t argue that at all – but my specific set of circumstances meant that, as a fat girl, I was never really happy. The long, painful journey to get to this point is part of the reason I’m happy now, because I’m stronger for it.

So yes, I feel different, and I feel better, but as usual – it’s not just about weight loss. Getting fit is a psychological process, and one that requires a 100% commitment – which is why diets fail. You have to go into it with the intention of changing your life, and be prepared to struggle to make it happen. You’ll work hard, and – if you’re like me – you’ll want to throw rocks at annoying health bloggers on the way. But once it becomes a routine part of your life – which happens sooner than you might think – you’ll realise that you know yourself, and you believe in yourself, more than you thought you ever would. It’s psychological as much as it is physical, but it’ll pay off on both fronts. Promise.

How Much Would You Do It For?

How Much Would You Do It For?

Ahhh, celebrity diets. The age-old ‘I lost 50lbs by eating nothing but grapefruit covered in salt water and lizard’s tears’ diet is a staple of trashy magazines (full disclosure: I love trashy magazines). When you’re tucking into your second helping of chicken nuggets, it’s easy […]

A Trip Down Memory Lane…

A Trip Down Memory Lane…

I’m so uncomfortable. Three years of hard work, and I’m stuck here, sweating, trying not to breathe so I don’t bust a shirt button under my graduation robes. This ought to be one of the best days of my life, and I just want to […]