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Lifting What I've Lost; or, Revelations On Public Transport
I've been doing this weight loss thing for a really long time now. I mean, I started in September 2010 - so we're talking almost three years since I first stepped into the gym in Worcester, weighing 290lbs. It's been a while, then, since I've felt like I could be surprised. As I've said over and [...] -
Proportion, Perspective, and Why Sometimes Good Things Seem Bad
Y'know when you start out on a journey to a 'new you' - or even just pick up where you left off on an old one - it's hard to imagine failing. You're resolute. You're determined. You're totally going to kick ass and achieve your goals, because you are awesome. Heck, once you're finished, you'll proba[...] -
Strength (and Pride, and Power) Training
Back in the day, I'd say I wasn't a very strong person. I wasn't necessarily weak, but I just kinda let things happen. I stayed in relationships too long because leaving them would be too hard; I stayed in education too long because I didn't think I'd be able to find a job; I comforted myself with p[...] -
Celebrity Weights Revealed, and Other Things That Make Me Furious
Yesterday, my gorgeous Mum came to visit me in London town, and I had the most wonderful day. We did some lovely touristy things - visiting Buckingham Palace, strolling down Carnaby Street, and wandering through St. James's Park. It was awesome. I was happy. And then this happened, and my mood wa[...] -
You Can Do Pretty Much Anything (and Other Things I've Learned in Two Weeks of Training)
You may remember a couple of weeks ago I said I was starting to train with the lovely Tom Dyer of Ultimate City Fitness, to find out how much butt it is possible for one fat girl to kick. I'm nothing if not open to new experiences, even if they do seem utterly terrifying. After all, I have this w[...] -
One Year of Fat Girl, PhD
It's my birthday! Well, not mine. But it's a whole year since I found myself sitting in my bedroom, writing my very first post, in my slippers and hat, at 10pm at night. I'd written the post, but I couldn't think of what to call the blog itself. I'd come up with a couple of bad puns, the odd play[...] -
Quit Planning, and Enjoy the Little Things
I've always thought of myself of something of a planner. I love a good strategy, me. When I'm not blogging, I'm paid to do just that - plan stuff. Strategise things. Day-to-day, I've got to be super-organised, thinking ahead days, weeks, and months in advance. And that's fine by me, because, as I[...] -
Fear and Loathing in Haagen Dasz
Since I (briefly) mentioned I was inclined to binge eat here, I've been inundated with questions about it - questions which it's taking me a while to answer, because frankly, I'm not sure how. See, when I try to talk about things like my tendency to binge eat... I just don't want to. Yes, [...] -
Escape Your Comfort Zone (Even If It Gives You Freshers' Flu)
I just had something of a revelation. After a week of feeling like death warmed up, I've realised... I've got Freshers' Flu. You've gotta laugh at times like this. Here I am, with my grown-up job, in my grown-up flatshare, with my grown-up clothes and attitude and a healthy living blog... And I'v[...] -
All Change Please, All Change
Well, it's done. I've made it to London, and I'm writing this post from my lovely new house in Islington. As it happens, I have something of a fuzzy head after a welcome night out with my new housemates - which was ridiculously fun, but my God, I am tired. You may have to excuse any parts of this po[...] -
Patience, Perfection, and That Time I Pretended I Was the Subway Guy
Perfection is something I'm pretty sure I don't believe in; it's right up there with the phrase 'nothing tastes as good as thin feels' and the 2013 Cliff Richard calendar in my 'List of Things I Strongly Oppose.' But sometimes, for reasons beyond my control - also known as this blog - I have to p[...] -
What Do You Really Want?
Simple question, really. But I have a theory that this whole health, fitness and wellbeing malarkey pretty much boils down to it. Figuring out what you really want - on a number of levels - is one of the most important things you can do to make a big ol' lifestyle change. Essentially, it comes d[...] -
The Resolutions You Really Should Be Making
I don't know about you, but I am terrible at sticking to my New Year's Resolutions. Disastrous. Last year, I resolved to go on a diet, and diet I did. For two weeks. As a result, I lost half a stone... And gained 10lbs immediately after. It took me 'til the end of February to remember t[...] -
Merry Christmas!
Hello! This is only a short post, but I wanted to check in and wish you guys a very, very Merry Christmas. Here's me and my gorgeous, wonderful, super-intelligent (and a bit of a pop star) sister this morning - we thought we'd dress up this morning, to make up for the inevitable pyjama time after di[...] -
Screw You and Your Platitudes; or, The Fat Paradox
It's Katie-rant time. On body image. Again. Ready? Firstly, I'm tiring of the word 'curvy.' I completely agree with the author of this article that it's a word that's become so overused as to lose all meaning - which is a shame, because it's a word I like. I don't think I'd be lying if I call[...] -
Adventures in Knee Surgery; or, Why It's Never Hopeless
As you probably know, yesterday was a big day for me, because I was getting a whole hunk of nasty metal removed from my knee. I needed it, back in the days when I was 290lbs - that stuff was the structure that was holding me up. But as time's gone on, and I've grown ever fitter (whilst reducing the [...] -
On Being Thankful For Your Flaws
America, I am officially gatecrashing your holiday. Because I love turkey, stuffing, and frankly, I think it's unfair that you guys get two goes at a Christmas-style break - so I'm getting involved. Consider me having pushed my way in there. Because I think Thanksgiving is a great holiday, or at [...] -
Where Do You Find Your Inspiration?
I was so, ridiculously cheerful earlier this week that it was almost embarrassing. Honestly, even pre-coffee, I'm pretty sure I had Disney-style bluebirds flying around, singing happy songs about how beautiful the weather is. Even though it's been raining. Yes, that cheery. I know. It's gross.[...] -
The Battle Pose
I like to think I'm pretty confident. Most of the time, I've got no issue with meeting new people, and I love a good chinwag - so outwardly, I'd say I'm pretty outgoing. Plus, I did post a series of photos of myself in my knickers for the world to see a couple of weeks ago, so I'm pretty sure nobody[...] -
Why It's Okay to Just Do Okay
As the wise man Mr T. once said, it's not where you come from, it's where you're going. And I'd be inclined to agree, especially on this whole health business. I don't think it's ever too late to make a difference to your lifestyle, regardless of where you're starting from - and I think aiming high [...] -
An Open Letter to Minnie Mouse
Dear Minnie, I know it's been a while since we last spent any quality time together. We used to have a great time when we were younger, but then we grew apart. I went to college, moved away, got a job, and I'll admit - I neglected our relationship. And for that I'm sorry, because now I feel like [...] -
Think Positive... Lose Weight?
When I was fat - or fatter, given the enormous chunk of birthday cake I unashamedly devoured at the weekend for my sister's 21st that I'm pretty sure weighed at least 10lbs and may have single-handedly given me diabetes - I was still... Me. I was still a mind inhabiting a body - and so you'd think I[...] -
An Honest Post for World Mental Health Day
Today is World Mental Health Day - an initiative by the World Health Organisation which is designed to "raise public awareness about mental health issues. The day promotes open discussion of mental disorders, and investments in prevention, promotion and treatment services." This year, the theme i[...] -
Stress, and How to Escape the Slump
I'm not really sure of the reasons behind it, but for the last few days I've been feeling a bit... Blue. That happens to everyone from time to time - even fine upstanding wellbeing-ers like myself. I've been a tad frazzled - it's been a busy patch at work, my PhD programme is being a pain in t[...] -
The War on Snarking; or, Why You Shouldn't Give a Damn
Ladies and gentlemen, it's that time again - wherein I go on about body image. Yes, again. You might've spotted a bit of a furore in the papers lately, because Lady Gaga has gained some weight. She's apparently gained 25lbs, in a move which has shocked people-who-should-have-more-important-things[...] -
Mindfulness, and When to Just Stop Thinking
I'm a busy woman - and it's hard to keep everything in balance sometimes. Normally this isn't an issue - and finding time to hit the gym usually seems like a welcome break from the huge amount of time I spend sitting in front of a computer screen... Even though I do tend to multi-task with the iPad [...] -
The Society of Solo Dancers
I was in full-on writer mode earlier. I was tapping away furiously, in total silence, pausing only to sip coffee and after four hours, at last, I was done. So, I cranked up the volume on my speakers, and got DOWN. I live alone. In a tiny flat. Above a curry house. But dammit, I can get down like [...] -
Where Do I Start? Part 2 - Getting Ready to Change
I'm always interested by psychological type things - especially when I can apply them to myself, because let's face it. I've started a blog about me. Safe to say I'm a wee bit self-absorbed. Anyway, that meant that when Matt told me about something called the transtheoretical model of behaviour [...] -
Where Do I Start, Part 1 - What's a Lifestyle Change?
I've been asked this a lot since I started this blog - and yet, weirdly enough, it's one of the posts I've struggled most to write. That's for a few reasons. Firstly, when I set out to lose weight initially, I didn't think like I do now. When you first start, you're all motivation - you know you wan[...] -
Self-Esteem, Self-Control, and Stretch Marks
I seem to talk about body image a lot. I know that. But here I am, back on it again, like a broken record. Sorry 'bout that. This time, though, it's because a friend of mine sent me this fabulous article and it gave me pause for thought. It's amazing what an impact the things people say to you as a [...] -
Getting and Staying Motivated
I've been asked a lot over the last few days - "how do you stay motivated?" Seems a lot of us - myself included - are in the habit of starting a diet with the best of intentions, and with all the motivation in the world... For about three days. Then it starts to go bit wrong. Temptation, life,[...] -
Cardio, Fat Burning, and Getting Stuff Done
When I first started out trying to lose weight, I hate hate hated cardio. What can I say? I like to have nice hair, and cardio seems to go out of its way to push against that. Boo hiss. But as you probably already know, one of the biggest parts of the exercise plan I've been following is the l[...] -
How Thinking Fat Can Make You Fat
I was intrigued to read this the other day, sent in by a very lovely reader: Teenagers who think they are overweight, even if they aren't, are far more likely to grow up to be obese, researchers warned today. They say that obsession with body image as a teen can influence our weight when we are [...] -
Think Happy Thoughts - Mantras for a Better Week
I've been amazed at how many people identify with me on the emotional eating front - especially among people who, like me, have to juggle a lot of balls and spin a lot of plates to keep everything ticking along. It's one of those things most of us have done at some point - landing face first into[...] -
In Praise of Curves, Skinny, & Everything Else
You know what's boring? Being told what's hot. That's boring. I am tired - tired, I tells ye - of talking to people of all shapes and sizes who aren't happy with how they look, because they don't live up to the 'ideal.' I'm also tired of living in a world where 'curvaceous' is shorthand for f[...] -
How I Lost 110lbs and Got Happy
I’m actually pretty delighted to be writing this post, because – along with the aforementioned Mr Super-Trainer-Nutritonist-Man (who I'll introduce properly below) I’ve finally got this weight loss thing down to an art. Not an art, actually – a science. GO SCIENCE. If I haven’t stressed this enou[...] -
The Psychology of Getting Fit
If there's one question I get asked a lot (second only to 'How did you do it?') it's this - 'do you feel different?' Usually the people asking that question are referring to the physical side of it - and yes, I feel completely different. I'm less tired. It doesn't hurt to get out of bed or the ba[...] -
Why Body Image Matters
I was very, very interested to read the recommendations from a group of UK MPs the other day suggesting that school children should have body image lessons as part of the curriculum. I'm going to repeat myself again here - for all the 'fat girl' jokiness of this blog, it's not just about weight l[...] -
Get Happy - Five and a Half Tips to Make Your Life Better
My last few posts have been a bit serious, I know - so I thought I'd take a minute to write a nice cheery post! I am happy at the moment. Really happy. The sun's out and I'm only a little bit burnt, which is always a bit of a mood lifter - and check it out, a new before and after pic: Evidentl[...] -
Appreciating What You've Got
It's often all-too-easy to get complacent about what you've got, be it friends, family, money, warmth - and your health. I've got a cold at the moment, and dammit, I feel sorry for myself. Really sorry for myself. I've noticed this more since I've been living a healthy lifestyle - the fact that I[...] -
Why I Love Yoga... and your Monday Inspiration!
I love yoga. This isn't something I thought I'd ever say, being rather inflexible and a bit of a chunky monkey. When I first started on this journey, and I had two problems with yoga. Firstly, surely if you're trying to lose weight, you should be sweating and working really hard at a slightly unc[...] -
Escaping Emotional Eating
I'm an emotional eater. No doubt about that. That's pretty much why, when I had two broken legs, I ballooned in weight - it's the way I deal with that stress. It's also why I've always had snacks on standby when PhDing, because - believe it or not - writing a PhD is very much an emotional rollercoas[...] -
It's Not Just About Weight Loss
Don't get me wrong - when I first took those footsteps into the gym, it was all about weight loss. I was never a depressed, shy, or insecure fat girl, and I didn't want to lose weight because I hated myself, or how I looked. I thought I looked good - I just thought I'd look even better in a small[...]