Why Am I Writing About Fitness?

Why Am I Writing About Fitness?

My name’s Katie. I’m 24 years old. I’m attempting to do a Literature PhD on top of a full-time job (because let’s face it – a girl’s gotta do what a girl’s gotta do.) Fortunately it’s a job I love, so I’m very lucky in that respect.

But above and beyond all this, I’ve always been a “fat girl” – not someone who should ever, ever be writing about fitness. Through school, through college, through uni, through endless jobs and job interviews, I’ve never not been the fat girl. See exhibit A:

Not a good look.

This was me at 290lbs, in July 2010.

Now, I’d always been big, but neverΒ that big – but at this point, I’d been in and out for extensive knee surgery (both sides) three times after a severe accident, been through a fairly torturous breakup (urgh!) and was balancing a full-time MPhil with a full-time shop job, so things weren’t looking good.

At that weight, I was on the precipice – I was either going to get much, much bigger and never claw it back, or I was going to have to make some pretty drastic changes to get away from it. I was eating for comfort, with a beast of a sugar and carb habit. I mean, seriously – no amount of Pizza Hut was going to cover it. Plus, because of the knee pain and walking issues, I wasn’t getting any exercise. It was not a good time for me.

I’d moved back to my hometown to be closer to work and my family after the breakup, and had found myself a lovely little room above a Subway. I mean the sandwich shop. Across the road from a Chinese, a chippy, and two curry houses. You can see where this could’ve all gone wrong, right?

However, ever so slightly further down the road (I’m talking still in view of my bedroom window) there was also a gym.

Now, the very mention of the word ‘gym’ would bring back flashbacks of school, when, as I’ve already said, I was the fat girl. Not good.

But I couldn’t avoid it – the fact that it was there meant my excuses were officially down to nothing. I was “fixed” knee-wise (as much as one can be with that much weight on the joints), I had student discount so I could afford the membership, and despite the job and the MPhil, I was spending a lot of time watching Grey’s Anatomy, thus negating the ‘time’ excuse. So, after months of avoiding it, I went in.

Embarrassing doesn’t even cut it.

But I signed up, got myself an induction booked, and went home via the chippy. Might as well use the 3 days before my excuses were officially gone for fun, right?

That was on the 23rd August 2010.

Now, I can’t say I’ve been an angel since – I was off the wagon for about 9 months. But with a renewed focus at the end of February – and the discovery of ‘clean eating’ – I’m now at 178lbs. So yes, I’ve still got some distance to go – but when I said at 290lbs that I’d like to lose 100 of them, it seemed impossible.

Now I’m nearly there.

Feb 2010 – Feb 2012 – April 2012
Feb 2010 – April 2012

Now, I’m not quite done – there’s still a bit of work to do and 18lbs until I reach my goal weight. But my addiction to weight loss and fitness blogs (as well as TV shows) has got me this far – so I thought I’d make one of my own so that I can (hopefully) help other people in my position.

After all, it’s been a real journey of discovery – I’ve learned a lot about myself, and as much as I’d like to say I was the same person before as I am now, I’m not. I’m confident, happy, and far more relaxed than I’ve ever been – and my focus has changed completely. All of the ways I’ve changed, though, have been for the better – not just in how I look, but in how I feel, how I think, how I cope with stress (something I have a lot of!)

I feel like a whole person now, and I’m living my life to the full in a way I never did before – so I’m hoping this blog can put some of my newfound positivity into the world for other people to use!

I’ve now lost 112lbs in two years (despite my 9 month hiatus) – and you can find out how I did that by clicking here!


51 thoughts on “Why Am I Writing About Fitness?”

  • Sounds like you’re around the same spot in your journey as me. I am currently 23 lbs away from my goal weight and have already lost 47 lbs. Good luck with the rest! You look amazing!

  • Well done you! If your looking for a good book to read i’d recommend ‘Run Fat Bitch Run’ by Ruth Field..title is a bit shocking i grant you but im in the middle of it and it’s great motivation!!

  • Greetings from twitter land. Just wanted to say congrats on your journey of transformation. I’m a PhD in literature as well and can understand what you’ve been going through. Which is why that tweet about going to bed early and trying to write, resonated, along with something else you tweeted about having to put your fear away when it comes to sitting down and writing your thesis/dissertation. I’m trying to dedicate this summer to getting my dissertation done (or at least a rough draft), and today was the first day I sat down and actually wrote, it wasn’t as torturous as I thought it would be. I’m committed to chipping away at it slowly but surely over the next few months. Anyhow, best on your thesis, I look forward to reading your progress.

    • Thank you! It’s amazing how as soon as you get going, writing doesn’t seem quite so scary – it’s just a matter of finding the will to get going that’s the difficult part. So congratulations on getting past that! Good luck with your summer plan – it’s a very good one, and let me know how you get on πŸ™‚

  • Hey, thanks for your comment – I stopped by. Must say, I love the writing style of your blog… I can find it difficult to relate to female weight loss blogs (being male!) but yours is great. Well written with enough emotion & humour to get invested – without being too much for a simple minded man to cope with πŸ™‚

    Congrats on your progress so far! I hope to have some similarly impressive before-after’s in the future! You have a new subscriber.

    • You’re too kind, thank you! Your blog is great too – from one overweight geek to another! Look forward to seeing how you progress, and can’t wait to see those amazing before and after pics πŸ˜‰

  • Wow! you have come a long way! I applaud you too. πŸ™‚ Its really only a inspiration for others. Im not a my goal weight just yet, i have to get past the emotional eating phase- im a work in progress, what can i say πŸ™‚

  • Holy crap. You’re amazing. You’ve always been beautiful, but I can really see how happy you are in the more recent photos. You’re truly inspirational!

  • Katie, holy crap! You look AMAZING! What a total badass you are to have come this far and made such awesome changes in your life. Congrats, and I’m so excited to have found your site so I can continue to follow along with you.

  • Katie,
    I love your story and can definitely relate! I was “big” when I was 9 years old, and hated everything about fitness for years. My decision to lose weight completely changed who I was and am for the better. I am also a Journalism major and will read and write about almost anything; so, I can relate on the passion for English front, as well. Your blog is beautifully done and an inspiration!

  • Thanks for the like on my site- just came over to see your site and it’s GREAT! Would love to become a follower so please send me an invite! πŸ™‚

  • Hi Katie. I’m so glad that I stumbled upon your blog (I googled “my PhD is making me fat”)! I am submitting in September (sooo close) and my emotional eating has gained serious momentum lately. I’ve been regularly eating myself into a stupor, to the point where my heart begins to race (scary, I know) and I feel physically uncomfortable the next day. But I JUST CAN’T STOP. It leaves me feeling numb/overwhelmed/fearful and affects my ability to focus on thesis writing (I’m a scientist, and let’s just say that writing doesn’t come to me naturally anyway). I find your combo of PhD/weight loss/trying to live well very relatable and you are clearly in a much better place than I am right now, but hearing your story gives me hope that one day I’ll also be able to manage my compulsion to eat, not matter what life throws at me. And I dunno, having a blogger who also lives in the UK (haha totally recognise all those Sainsbury’s goodies, and I did the Race for Life this year too!) makes it feel more real for some reason. So thanks for sharing and I’m looking forward to what else you have to say! xxx

    • Amy, thank you so much for the lovely words – and for sharing! I completely understand the feeling – I’ve been there myself, especially around stress periods (PhD included!) and it’s really draining trying to cope without falling into the trap of emotional eating. I’m just really glad it’s not just me! Thanks again for the comment – and keep me posted with your progress, I’d love to hear more about what you’re doing πŸ™‚ xx

  • Reading that felt so refreshing for me. Not sure why. I love all your posts!! You look great by the way. Think I found your blog through twitter- also very funny to follow. I’m thankful that there are people like you in the world (wide web). x

  • Thanks Katie! I’m motivated. Thank you for posting the link for BMI and calories. I will be following you to keep ME motivated!! Now to the treadmill!

  • Hi Katie πŸ™‚
    I have just joined your blog, and I have to say you look awesome and are an inspiration.
    After a series of injuries and illnesses since leaving the army and the chocolates I am left by my patients (I’m now a nurse) I am on the receiving end of a developing “pudding belly!”
    All hints and tips gratefully received!

    • Wow – thank you! High praise from someone who sounds awesome (the army and a nurse? You must be a hero!) πŸ™‚

      It’s hard to advise without looking into your lifestyle as a whole, but I’d say there’s no need to completely cut out the chocolates your patients are giving you (although I guess that depends on how many you’re getting – if you’re on the receiving end of four boxes of Thorntons a day, you might end up with a bit of a backlog if you try the whole ‘moderation’ thing!) I think the main thing for me is keeping active in any way that I can – I know it’s old hat, but taking the stairs (if you can) rather than a lift, walking to work, even chopping vegetables instead of eating ready meals… These are all things that might help!

      Good luck! x

  • You are absolutely so gorgeous! I can’t wait to start reading your blog regularly. I just read over the “where do I start – Part 3” entry and I get SO excited when I see people giving honest, 100% real dietary advice. No gimmicks, diet fads, or unattainable goals. Congratulations on your already huge success – I can’t wait to see what else you will accomplish!

    • Thank you so much – I was looking at your blog the other day and it’s amazing too! Thank you for popping by to say hello πŸ™‚

  • Hi..
    You are amazing!!!!!
    Such an absolute inspiration,i came across this post while looking for success stories for motivation,and i am so glad i did. πŸ™‚
    I weight a whooping 265 pounds stand 5ft 7 inches tall and have been fat for all the 25 yrs of my life.
    I would honestly love to be have been trying to loose my weight for long now,but been on and off way too much.
    Basically most of my concepts are confused and got no one to help me out,but i have a feeling that reading through this will help me out for sure.
    If there is any way in which you could help me,it would be awesome !!
    Much Love!!!

    • Awww, thank you! I’m so glad you think it could help – and I’m working on a meal plan and fitness programme that should hopefully give you everything you need πŸ™‚ Much love to you too!

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